Saturday, December 26, 2009

My moms house has the best light

Home for the holidays and I'm full of food and rested. I forgot how much of my artwork my mom has hanging up. I haven't really painted in a while, I need to get crackin. Painting for me is stressful at times when I want it to be fun and relaxing. I get annoyed when things don't look great the first time around.

One of my goals for the new year is to paint more even if it's just a small watercolor. This is my painting called The Journey, I was thinking about travel, the Israelites in the wilderness, African refugees, difficult paths, community, and the unknown.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Quiet Time

It's such a peaceful time, almost in a sad way. 2009 wasn't as good as I hoped it be but at least I made it through. I still have my health....being single in a new year sucks just as much as in an old one. I have to find a way to just be happy with who I am. I annoy myself with that comment but it's true. I have lots of plans for the new year. I don't know what will happen, the end of the year came so fast.

I thought that moving away would fix things but only made them worse, alot worse. I look forward to a better year. I pray for a better one anyway. My prayers are too repetitious sometimes. I ask for things I feel are maybe just out of reach but when I look back that same prayer has been prayed for years. How MUCH longer? Am I there yet? I will trust God to give me guidance.

My art work is on display only in my head. Why aren't I more successful? How come I can't get a job doing what I love? Instead, I do what is necessary to pay the bills.

I miss home

A fabric collage I started and never finished.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

This was a rock I came across on a hike...looked like a womans torso.

Shows I'm into...

I love the Spanish teacher!

I woke up this morning thanking God

My stepdad sends me a text almost every morning (around 4:25am before I'm awake). This morning he said to eat a cookie everyday. I think I do already! Love him for that. I didn't realize how hardcore blogging can be...learn something new everyday.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

My very first (real) post! (kinda) ;)

I'm not sure what to write so I guess I'll just start with what I like to do...and that's art. The two paintings posted are undergraduate work from my senior year. They turned out completely different the initial sketch (more abstract).
So here is some of my work...two paintings in acrylic paint...called "him" and "her." I was happy when I painted these. There wasn't the pressure I feel now to perform. I've tried to paint since I graduated and no success. I hate the word burnt-out but maybe it fits. I was (during this painting) and still am influenced by the human form, body paint, tribal body paint, fashion and identity.

I need a better camera....